Two weeks ago at Aya Sofya, I had an enlightening conversation with a friend's date. When I was pseudo-dancing at the table, moving my upper body in rhythm with the music, she asked a question I hadn't asked myself before.
I was ready to give her the standard army issue vanilla answer (Because I suck) but half a second of thought told me that wasn't going to cut it. Not because it wasn't actually a reason - I do suck at dancing - but because I didn't do it because I'm way too much of a control freak, and I was too self conscious to do something that I knew I had little control over (since I didn't actually know what I was doing).
That conversation was illuminating and kept nagging at me over the days. Today, back at Aya Sofya, after dancing on to some Turkish music and jumping around to Greek songs, Guiselle said that she had never seen me as free as when I was there.
Both together cemented on my mind something I had known before, but obviously hadn't learned. From Shah Nematollah Vali:
All too true, in my humble opinion. I've been trying to step out of my cemented mould and try different things. Just to try has done wonders.
BTW, Friend Méndez, I haven't received the e-mail you've mentioned over our conversation last night. Must have bounced (although I can't think of a reason for that). Could you send it again?
Posted by: Ricardo at June 26, 2003 08:45 AM